This Sista said to me tonight...
"Why you walk like that?"
"Like what?" I asked.
"You KNOW!" she said.
"Like you are really feeling yourself"
I hear it often. And I am figuring that for a so-called:
And, as anybody who knows me knows.... No matter how entranced I may be, how impressed, how enthusiatic...
I fall out of like in an instant.
Yet I digress.
I can remember being in middle school, and asking, "Why don't girls like me?" Right?
And somehow... I end up telling her My Theory, which I likely have not shared with too many of my friends. Just because it seems obvious, to me.
Anyways... so you know how you learned in elementary school, and you learned that we live on earth, and the earth revolves around the sun, and the sun is nothing but one insignificant ball of gas in an infinite universe filled with a thousand million other suns doing the same thing?
I think this is bullshit.
("This n-word is crazy")
I believe that the sun revolves around the earth.
I believe that the sun revolves around me.
Jabir believes that the sun revolves around him.
I am not insignificant.
I am not minute.
I am not powerless.
I am not without purpose.
I am not without meaning.
This earth, the skies, the sun and the stars were made for ME by my GOD.
If for nothing more than my own enjoyment. To gaze and wonder.
To reflect.
To worship the God who Created all of this....
For me.
And I never realized how foreign a thought this was.
How uncommon, in my friends, my people, my family...
I never really understood that so many people think that they are part of some cosmic accident.
A Big Bang.
Emerged from a primordial soup, one step evolved from monkeys, apes and gorillas.
I never really understood this.... until this wide-eyed stranger took me by the hand, and sat me down next to her.
I stared at her, nearly at a loss for words.
"Say things," she encouraged. "Tell me more"
And I know I have said to both of them, from to time, "Be like me."
And this is what I was getting at.
You are EVERYTHING. You are the WORLD. GOD Created you with purpose, you are uniquely talented, gifted, intelligent, beautiful... as a woman, and as a human being.
People will always recognize that, even when you may not.
Don't get flattered when someone is caught up in your gravity. To resist would cause them great pain.
You are the sun.
No....
You are bigger, brighter... with more power... and more potential.
After all... the sun is revolving around YOU.
"Why you walk like that?"
"Like what?" I asked.
"You KNOW!" she said.
"Like you are really feeling yourself"
I hear it often. And I am figuring that for a so-called:
mean
judgmental
arrogant
intimidating
overwhelming
closed-minded know-it-all
I'm prety daggone approachable, these days... Must be, cuz in the last couple of weeks, I have met some really excellent Sistas.
Like... out of nowhere.
And, as anybody who knows me knows.... No matter how entranced I may be, how impressed, how enthusiatic...
I fall out of like in an instant.
Yet I digress.
I learn so much about myself from other people, and their interpretations of me. And not that I trust, nor believe them, but it does help me to understand how I am seen.
I can remember being in middle school, and asking, "Why don't girls like me?" Right?
And then around 10th-11th grade, looking myself in the mirror and asking, "Why do girls like me?"
And at some point, between then and now, I went from questioning it, to expecting it. "Why shouldn't they?"
This does tie in.... I found myself in a conversation with this Sista, just a few days ago... And less than 10 minutes after we first met eyes... We are Philosophizing.
And somehow... I end up telling her My Theory, which I likely have not shared with too many of my friends. Just because it seems obvious, to me.
Anyways... so you know how you learned in elementary school, and you learned that we live on earth, and the earth revolves around the sun, and the sun is nothing but one insignificant ball of gas in an infinite universe filled with a thousand million other suns doing the same thing?
I think this is bullshit.
("This n-word is crazy")
But it's true.
I believe that the sun revolves around the earth.
I believe that the sun revolves around me.
Jabir believes that the sun revolves around him.
I am not insignificant.
I am not minute.
I am not powerless.
I am not without purpose.
I am not without meaning.
This earth, the skies, the sun and the stars were made for ME by my GOD.
If for nothing more than my own enjoyment. To gaze and wonder.
To reflect.
To worship the God who Created all of this....
For me.
And I never realized how foreign a thought this was.
How uncommon, in my friends, my people, my family...
I never really understood that so many people think that they are part of some cosmic accident.
A Big Bang.
Emerged from a primordial soup, one step evolved from monkeys, apes and gorillas.
I never really understood this.... until this wide-eyed stranger took me by the hand, and sat me down next to her.
And she said, "Talk to me."
I stared at her, nearly at a loss for words.
"Say things," she encouraged. "Tell me more"
I have two favorite people. Jamese and Patrice. Both dear friends of mine.
And I know I have said to both of them, from to time, "Be like me."
And this is what I was getting at.
You are EVERYTHING. You are the WORLD. GOD Created you with purpose, you are uniquely talented, gifted, intelligent, beautiful... as a woman, and as a human being.
People will always recognize that, even when you may not.
Don't get flattered when someone is caught up in your gravity. To resist would cause them great pain.
You are the sun.
No....
You are bigger, brighter... with more power... and more potential.
After all... the sun is revolving around YOU.
